New Year Update!!

Hey folks,

Huge, huge apologies for not blogging in so long!! It’s been a crazy couple of months to be honest and a lot has happened! So, I am here to update you all and hopefully get back on track with my blog and post more often again! I’ve missed it to be honest!!!!

Well, where to start….

As you all know, I quit smoking on 2nd November 2015. And I’m delighted to say it’s stuck this time, and I’m still smokefree 🙂 having some really great news on the same day as my first quit day really helped to motivate me though. Also on the 2nd of November, I found out I’m pregnant!!!! Dreams came true and year made! There was no doubt I’d stay smokefree from there onwards!

Because of morning sickness though, I’ve not visited the gym since 11th November!! Shocking I know…. I really do miss it. It used to be my second home haha. I had to stop training with my PT as well, as it was too much and I didn’t want to cause any harm to baby.

I’ve also put my Personal Trainer course on hold; as I was unable to do the practical exams now that I’m pregnant. It’s on hold for a year, so I won’t have to worry about it until end of this year, when baby will be here 🙂

I’m now 14 weeks pregnant, and the morning sickness is starting to ease slightly; it’s now more just the evenings, whereas to start with I felt sick all day every day! I can’t say I’ve really enjoyed being pregnant so far haha! But it’ll all be worth it.

We had the first scan this week too, to make sure everything was okay and to date the pregnancy officially. Baby was measuring 13 weeks and 5 days, so my due date is July 8th 🙂 6 months from today!! All is well though, and it was such an amazing experience to see our baby for the first time; and amusing when the sonographer wiggled the scanner on my tummy, and baby turned it’s back on us, showing us it’s bottom! We did buy some scan photo’s too, and I can’t stop looking at them! I’m so in love already! The next scan is on the 19th February, when I’ll be 20 weeks, halfway! It’s going so fast, it’s kind of frightening haha. We’re not going to find out the sex of the baby though, we’re keeping it as a surprise for when it’s born. As hubby pointed out, you don’t get many surprises in life, and this one will be rather epic!

I’m so excited, and rather terrified! Being a mummy is all I’ve ever wanted, and we’ve been trying for a baby for 5 years, so it’s been a long time coming. In the back of my mind I’m constantly worrying though, hoping and praying that nothing goes wrong, and seriously can’t wait to meet him or her and hold them in my arms.

Here is our beautiful baby:

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It has caused a few complications regarding my medication though for the bipolar. They had to change the anti-psychotic to a safer one asap, and I’ve got to go back and see the psychiatrist throughout my pregnancy, so they can keep an eye on my mental health. That side of it is a little frustrating, as I never really got on with the psychiatrist, always found her to be so patronising and she never really listened to me. Maybe things will be different this time around, fingers crossed. I’ve also got to be under a consultant at the hospital as well.

As far as my mental health goes at the moment, I’m feeling great. Over the moon at the thought of being a mummy, honestly couldn’t be happier right now. When I see the psychiatrist later on this month, I am going to say that I want to come off the anti-psychotics though; as I’ve read that it can cause problems when taken through the third trimester. So I want off. It’s completely my right to request that too, so she can’t really tell me no. As long as I stay on the anti-depressant I think I’ll be okay anyway. As depression was my main problem over the years.

I’ve just realised that really the only thing that’s happened since I last posted is the pregnancy haha. And that’s all I’ve seemed to talk about in this post…. ah well, it’s all good!

I hope you all forgive me for being so quiet; I do appreciate you all still and have missed talking to you. Hope you all had a lovely Christmas, and I wish you all the best for 2016. I hope it’s an awesome year for us all!!

I shall leave it there for tonight as I’m completely exhausted and bed is calling me! So, thank you for reading and I hope you’ll still all be there for me on this new and exciting adventure in my life 🙂

Take care, stay strong, and until next time….

x Sara Phoenix x

19th November

Hey folks,

Apologies for the long delay in me writing, again! There’s really not a lot going on that I can write about to be honest. Just living day to day really, doing okay and loving life 🙂

My poor mum had a fall yesterday, bless her, cut all down one side of her face, and her eye. Looked very sore 😦 thankfully nothing broken, and she was quite chirpy and well otherwise, just a little shaken up. I spent all afternoon with her, just to make sure she was okay.

I can’t remember if I told you about getting a car or not, was a while ago…. but I did. A little black Ford Ka. Called him Charlie, haha! Well, am in the process of selling him now! It needs a fair bit of work doing to it and it’s just not on my priorities right now. So it’s got to go sadly. Was a good little car for the time I had it 🙂

Still smoke free, nearly 3 weeks now, well will be on Sunday 🙂 feeling great and loving being a non-smoker too. Feels really good, and I’m really proud of myself. Never thought I’d ever crack it; but just goes to show if you’re head is in the right place, then you can take on anything!

Anyway, that’s pretty much it from me really, nothing else going on to write about at the moment! Thanks for reading my randomness though, means a lot!

Take care, stay strong and until next time….

x Sara Phoenix x

 

9th November

Hey folks,

Been a while hasn’t it haha, apologies. Not really had a lot to write about though to be honest, as not much has really happened! Well, that’s a lie, there’s been a few developments over the past week, but not all I can write about here unfortunately! I can tell you 2 things though; I’ve cancelled my gym instructor assessment tomorrow and deferred my course for a year. For reasons that I can’t explain just now, but don’t worry, I am okay honestly. Life has just gotten in the way really, and it’s not the right time for me to be studying.

Other than that, not a lot to report really!! My medication has been reduced slightly, which is good! But I am being referred back to the mental health team, just to keep an eye on things for a while. I’m doing okay, but they just want to check up on me and monitor things on the new medication. Don’t worry folks, it’s all good 🙂

Oh, today is day 8 smoke free 😀 Doing really well, and not even using patches any more either!! I’m feeling really determined and confident this time around, and 100% motivated; so it’s all good!!

Right, that’s all from me for tonight, am really tired and fancy a nice bath and an early night 🙂

Thanks for reading, and will try and post more often! Take care, stay strong and until next time….

x Sara Phoenix x

2nd November

Hey folks,

Will keep this short and sweet tonight, as am totally shattered!!

Overall it’s been a good day, not really done very much to be honest. Went for my run this morning, but it was fairly slow. I didn’t push myself too hard either. Just took it steady and got it done. Which is better than no run at all 🙂 came in at 17:33. So only 3 seconds slower than Friday, but my average mile pace was quicker at 12:18. So that’s not too bad.

After my run I just chilled out for a bit, watched tv and gave my cat lots of fuss! He’s really clingy to me at the moment!

I then went into town for a few things, then back home and headed to my mums. As haven’t seen her for a while, so thought I’d better show my face haha!

Ugh, think I’ve eaten too much today, feel a bit sick!

Today is day one of my quit smoking attempt, and all has gone well so far! Using patches this time around, and so far so good!

Anyway, that’s all from me for tonight, am thinking about going to bed soon haha. Thanks for reading as always lovely people, take care, stay strong and until next time….

x Sara Phoenix x

26th October

Hey folks,

Had another good day today! I seem to be on cruise control at the moment though, just kind of plodding through life day by day. But I guess that’s not a bad thing!

Anyway, I started the day with my run as per usual for a Monday, and it went really well. Did 1.43 miles in 17:17. Knocking 33 seconds off my last run, when I ran a shorter distance! So am pretty happy with that. Also knocked a minute off my average mile pace as well, yay! I probably could have run better though, if it hadn’t of been for a trouser malfunction. I chose the wrong pair of leggings this morning, and they just kept falling down! Every time I hit my stride, they’d start to creep down and I’d have to go back to walking and pull them back up! So, definitely need some new long leggings for running in! Size 12 is just too big for me now, woo!

After my run, I had my breakfast and headed off to work to walk the dogs. That was just the usual really, nothing exciting there!

My next job was to pick up my medication from the medical centre, and then I had some lunch and headed off to the gym for my favourite day of the week, LEG DAY! Love a good leg day for some reason, not sure why haha!
I did:
Stairmaster on level 8 to warm up;
Leg Press – new PB of 59kg! Man, that was tough!!
Seated Abduction
Seated Adductor
Calf Press – new PB of 18kg!
Leg Extension
Then 3 x 150m sprints on the rower for a bit of fat burn!

I was meant to do Romanian Deadlifts as well, but I kind of chickened out of going in the free weights area today, plus my arms are really sore from deadlifts at the weekend with my PT! And I was eager to get home to crack on with more coursework.

After the gym, I treated myself to my favourite soya latte from Costa and headed home.

This evening I attended the stop smoking clinic; woo, that was fun! Not. After a horrific drive (sat nav fail!), we finally found it. Then my appointment only lasted about 20 minutes. She basically went through all the NRT products with me, and I decided on patches and a mouth spray. So she wrote me a prescription type form to take to Boots asap to pick them up. I can’t do it tomorrow as am at work all day, but will probably do it on Wednesday, with a view to quitting Thursday/Friday.

Speaking of Thursday, I have a job interview at 10:45am 🙂 for a job in the hardware store in the village. I’m just not really enjoying the housekeeping job; It’s bringing me down, I think from spending so much time on my own. I need social interaction with other people, and the hustle and bustle of retail. Fingers crossed!!

Diet wise I’ve really nailed it today! Yay! Really proud of myself for getting back in control of it to be honest. It was spiralling in a dangerous direction, and I really needed to stop it sharpish! Everything has been weighed/measured today, and logged on myfitnesspal, so I’m doing really well. 🙂

With all my activity today, I’d say today is a complete success all round 🙂

Right, I need to get back to my course work now, as really want to get the paperwork side of things sorted asap, so that I can concentrate on practising the practical side of things!

Thanks for reading folks, hope Monday has treated you well! Take care, stay strong and until next time….

x Sara Phoenix x

24th October

Hey folks,

Been a pretty good day today; had my PT session this morning, which was awesome. Did strength training today and cracked some more personal bests! Did a 35kg squat and a 40kg deadlift! Well proud of that. My PT reckons that my 1 rep max would be 45kg, so we’re going to see if that’s right next time I think. Love strength training to be honest, it’s my favourite. Got another 2 sessions booked in for next week, Wednesday at 9am for conditioning training and Thursday at 12pm for more strength training. I love having 2 sessions a week, feels like I’m really getting my fitness back and I love it!

The rest of my day has been fairly chilled out, well apart from this evening haha. This afternoon I was planning on doing course work, but my body had other ideas, so I took a nap instead! Was shattered after my PT session to be honest. Which is unusual for me, as usually I’m really pumped! So I know it’s been a long week!! So I tackled my coursework after dinner instead. Have only just put it away, so have done it for about 4 hours or so. Which sounds like a long time (well, it is!), but it’s flown by to be honest. Didn’t realise what the time was until I was getting in a stress about something and hubby was like “leave it for tonight, it’s gone 10pm!”. So I put my books away and logged in here to write to you lovely people!

I’ve got quite a lot done tonight though, so that’s good. But still have a lot left to do. I’ve got to somehow fit my full session plan into 60 minutes, which feels impossible right now. It’s like playing tetris with time! I’ll work it out somehow tomorrow. But tonight I planned my prep and cool down stretches, finished off my risk assessment and detailed session plans for cool down. I need to go over the pre-consultation questions again to be honest, as I don’t think some of them are right! But that’s for another day.

Diet wise it’s been a shocking day again! Munched my way through about 2,500 calories, which isn’t good at all. With weigh in next week, it’s going to be bad! I really need to get my head back in the game and stick to my 1,800 per day, otherwise things will go in the wrong direction. And that’s not what I want at all, obviously.

I’ve got the quit smoking clinic on Monday evening, so that’s the next step in my health and fitness journey. I need to get it done, sooner rather than later. It’s really frustrating me, and I feel like a really bad example as a PT to be honest. In a way I’m glad I’m not qualified yet, because it wouldn’t look good! But it’ll happen, hopefully before my assessment. Although I’m worried about not having cigarettes to keep me calm on that day….

I can’t remember if I told you my decision on Rock Choir, but if not I shall now! I decided to leave for a while, to focus on my course. As I’ve got so much on with that, and work as well, that getting to RC was proving to be a challenge. So I took it out of the equation temporarily. I do miss it, but I can always go back when I’m ready. At the moment though, my main focus is qualifying as a PT. It’s my dream, and I’m going to work hard to achieve it. I’m determined to pass my assessment next month, and then move on to level 3 Personal Training.

Anyway, I think it’s soon time for bed, so I shall call it a night with this now. Thanks for reading as always folks, you’re all ace! Hope you’re all having a great weekend. Take care, stay strong and until next time….

x Sara Phoenix x

17th October

Hey folks,

Hope you’re having a good weekend; mines been okay so far. Unfortunately my PT session didn’t happen though, as my trainer was taken ill at work, bless him. Hoping he’s feeling much better soon!! So, I just chilled out at home this morning, then this afternoon hunted on YouTube for a workout to do. I found Shaun T’s Insanity Max:30. At first I watched through some of it and thought there was no way I’d keep up with it! Then I just thought sod it, I’m gonna do it! So I took my laptop upstairs and got on with it. It was proper tough! I maxed out around the 11 minute mark so took a quick water break then cracked on. Then maxed out again around 23 minutes in, again took a quick break then jumped back in. Completed the whole workout and felt amazing! And so damn proud of myself for doing it. Burned a cracking 400 calories as well, which was ace!

For the rest of the day I’ve just been relaxing, reading and listening to music. Trying my hardest not to stress about next week! Easier said than done, especially when I had an email reminder from Lifetime training about it haha. It’s all beginning to feel really real now, and it’s scary. I am looking forward to it as well, but just scared of the unknown I guess. It’s somewhere I’ve not been to before, with people I’ve never met too. Not an ideal situation for me! But I’ll put my big girl pants on and get it done, haha!

As far as the smoking is concerned, it’s not gone well. Still haven’t managed to quit and it’s really getting to me. I think Monday will be the day to be honest, as I’ll be so focused on my course and won’t be able to nip out for a smoke any way. Plus I don’t want to walk in stinking of cigarettes either, so won’t smoke before it. I’ve got myself booked in to the stop smoking clinic on the 26th of this month. So even if I smoke in the evenings next week, the time is coming for me to quit once and for all. I just need some help with it to be honest. Nicotine addiction is tough, and no matter how hard I’ve tried I just can’t do it on my own.

Diet wise I’ve done really well today, sitting at just under 2000 calories, which is fine. I know my intake should only be 1800 but I’ve earned the extra with the insanity workout today. Feels good to be in control of my diet again, only been a couple of weeks, but I’m loving it. Being back on it feels great mentally and physically too.

So all in all it’s been a pretty good day today; but there’s a niggling feeling I’m getting at the moment…. just a real low and meh kinda feeling. It’s crept up on me and hit me this evening. Not quite sure why. Well, to be fair, I do have a lot going on in my life right now, and am super stressed about money. As per usual! Oh well, things always seem to work out in the end somehow, by a miracle usually! Need to win the lottery…. then again, I need to actually do the lottery in order to win it haha!

Anyway, that’s it from me for tonight. Thanks for reading as always, take care, enjoy the rest of your weekend, and stay strong. Until next time….

x Sara Phoenix x