7th September

Hey folks,

Been a rather busy day today! This morning I really didn’t want to get up though, so my usual early morning run didn’t happen (until later on, more on that shortly!), I literally got up, had a quick coffee and headed off to work to walk the dogs. Luckily I only had 2 of the 3 to walk, so it wasn’t too scary haha. Then I came home, had a quick drink, changed and went off out for my run!

I wasn’t happy with it though to be honest; was so much slower today that usual, even slower than my runs without music! Not sure what’s going on with that really, I’m thinking it’s because I’m bored of the route now. So, with that said, I’m challenging myself to do 5k instead. Obviously it’ll be walk/run intervals still, but I’m up for the challenge. Actually looking forward to running again now, whereas these last couple of runs have filled me with dread for some reason! I’ve still gone and got it done, but can’t say I’ve enjoyed them as much as I was at the start. When my times were getting quicker it spurred me on to keep getting out there, but as my times slowed right down, it de-motivated me somewhat. So, as of Wednesday, I’ll be running/walking 5k’s! Well, maybe a shorter distance on Friday’s when it’s a work day and I’m short on time!! But still, two days a week for sure.

After my run, I got changed again, had my protein shake, then headed back out to my doctors appointment. Basically was just a check in with my GP, which is useful for both of us, to see how I’m getting on. He also prescribed me some anti-histamines to help me with my sleep, but said not to take more than half to start with, to see how it affects me. Also, not to take them for the first time the night before starting my new job, so it’s not going to be tonight! I’m hoping I get a good nights sleep tonight though, as I’ve got a long day ahead of me tomorrow – 9:30-6 – and I’m quite nervous about it. It’s only technically ‘training’ though, so I guess I needn’t worry too much. Although, I’m sure it’ll still be hard work. Will be doing cleaning, dog walking and general housekeeping. I am sort of looking forward to it, mostly the earning money part and getting back into a routine, haha!

Back to my doctors appointment – he was generally happy with how I’m doing, and said my recent ‘wobble’ with depression is most likely down to having so much going on at the moment, which to be fair, I really do have a fair bit going on. What with work, my PT course, gym, Avon, rehearsing for Russell Watson performance, Relay For Life, and family drama to deal with, it’s all happening for me right now! As well as something else going on that I’m not going to speak about on here, but it’s causing me a great deal of stress and anxiety at the moment!! So yeah, am pretty frazzled to be honest! But hopefully it’ll all settle down and things will be calmer and more organised.

Mood wise I’m not doing so bad today; feeling fairly good and upbeat, but I think it’s helped that I’ve had 3 days with my husband at home. During the last couple of weeks, I’ve spent a lot of time on my own, and that never helps me to be honest. I do get lonely; but at the same time I really wasn’t feeling like a people person either, so needed the time out and space I guess. Kind of stuck between a rock and hard place on that really. Not wanting to be alone, but not wanting to socialise or be with people either!

As for my diet, have been back on plan for 2 days straight now, and I’m definitely feeling better for it. However, I don’t think it’s going to be enough to shift my gain that I discovered the other day. But we’ll see. Am hoping we don’t have weigh in at my PT session this week to be honest, as it’s not going to be good I don’t think. But then again, it may spur me on if I see a gain on the official scales, who knows!

Anyway, I think that’s enough from me for today, probably my longest post for a while! Hope you all had a great weekend!! Thanks for reading as always, take care, stay strong and until next time….

x Sara Phoenix x

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