30th July

Hey folks,

Checking in early today, as have an afternoon/evening of studying planned!

This morning I headed off to the gym for Ladies Tone class, which was intense but great! We did similar to yesterdays LBT class (same PT!), so we did things like deadlifts, squats, glute bridges, split squats and lunges. I nearly passed out doing the squats, felt really funny all of a sudden :/ Not so good, but I battled through and got it done πŸ™‚ I think it was just because I was really pushing myself. I’d eaten breakfast, so it can’t have been hunger haha.

Am tempted to have a little nap before I do some study to be honest; didn’t sleep very well last night, so am pretty tired.

Am still smokefree πŸ˜€ still vaping, and hoping to go down to the zero nicotine liquid real soon too, so will start a new app to count the days nicotine free as well. I do feel I’m semi-cheating at the moment, as I’m still getting my nicotine fix, but at least I’m not smoking real cigarettes, that are full of crap!

Had a real craving for fish, chips and mushy peas for dinner tonight, not sure why. So, instead of the calorie loaded chip shop version, I’ve bought some fish fillets from the shop, and a tin of mushy peas. The chips I already have in the freezer; so I’ll get my fix at a fraction of the calories! Win!

Anyway, I think that’s all from me today, sorry it’s short and sweet again, but life just seems to be cruising along nicely at the moment, so I’m not complaining (makes a change!). Let’s hope it stays that way eh πŸ™‚

Thanks for reading as always, take care, stay strong and until next time….

x Sara Phoenix x


29th July

Hey folks,

Not really sure what to write about tonight, but thought I’d check in anyways!

Today has been a good day, again, yay! I am shattered though, and contemplating an early night. My eyes are really heavy and just want to close….

I went to the gym today, for legs, bums and tums class! Which was great. Hard work though; we did deadlifts, squats, lunges, sit ups, planks, russian twists and a few more things I can’t remember! I used my usual barbell weight of 10kg πŸ™‚ Might up it next time.

Tomorrow is ladies tone class, which is also a great class. I highly recommend both at Pure Gym.

I’m over my calories today, but it’s okay as I burned 326 at the gym, so even though I’m over the 2000 mark, I’m still within my limits πŸ™‚

I submitted another assessment today too; even though I’ve not heard back about the other one yet. But hopefully I will soon.

Am on day 3 smoke free too by the way! Just sayin’….

Anyway, that’s all from me tonight; short and sweet (just like me haha!). Thanks for reading folks, take care, stay strong and until next time….

x Sara Phoenix x

28th July

Hey folks,

Thought I’d blog early while I had nothing else to do!

Today has been quite a lazy day so far. Went over to a friends this morning for a cuppa and a chat, which was really nice. So good having a car to get about! Loving it!! It’s going to the garage tonight to be checked over though, as the brakes aren’t great and it’s not idling very well at the moment. I think it’s overdue a service to be honest, as it was last done in 2013! Probably didn’t help starting it up with an empty petrol tank when we went to look at it! Would of dragged up loads of junk from the bottom of the tank most likely! Needs a good blast out haha, but until the brakes are better I don’t dare put my foot down too much!!

So tired today, am really struggling to stay awake! Once I’ve written this I’m off for a nap!

Diet wise I’m doing really well, keeping on track and well under my 2000 calories. Today is a rest day from exercise, so I don’t eat much.

My second assessment for my course is now done and ready to submit. As soon as I’ve heard back about the last one, I will submit it. Kind of stuck there with it for now, as want to make sure all the level 2 stuff is done before I move on to the level 3 stuff! So it’s just a waiting game now really. If I get bored I might make a start of the level 3 stuff, just so I’m doing something!

Anyway, really fighting my eyes now so I will leave it there. Thanks for reading as ever, take care, stay strong and until next time….

x Sara Phoenix x

27th July

Hey folks,

Today has been a good day! You’ll never guess what I’ve done…. QUIT SMOKING! Nearly a whole day down and feeling alright, ish! Am contemplating vaping now that hubby is home, but so far he’s not had a smoke since he’s been home so it’s not so bad. But even so, vaping is a lot better than smoking anyway! I wish I’d gotten some nicotine free liquid for my vape pen though….

Will see how it goes.

I’ve kept myself busy all day though pretty much; this morning I did some housework, then cleaned the interior of my car. After that I headed off to the gym for some cardio. I burnt off 330 calories, doing 5 minutes of rowing, 35 minutes/8.23 miles on the bike, and just over a mile in 24 minutes on the treadmill. Was a really good session.

Diet wise, I’ve gone over 2000 calories by 11, so nothing major! And technically earned an extra 330 calories today anyway, so it balances out πŸ™‚ I treated myself to a costa coffee today after the gym, was lush, but naughty!

Anyway, that’s all from me for tonight, fingers crossed I can still avoid the smokes. I don’t mind if I vape, that’s not a fail to me. We shall see, hubby is rolling a smoke as I type! Hmmm….. will let you know tomorrow!

Thanks for reading as always, take care, stay strong and until next time….

x Sara Phoenix x

26th July

Hey folks,

Another busy day of studying today; my brain feels pretty fried haha! It’s all good though. Another assessment nearly completed, just a few questions that are slightly puzzling me at the moment, but I’m sure looking at it with fresh eyes tomorrow will help and it’ll all be fine πŸ™‚

Today was a rest day from exercise, so I put my time to good use on my studies. It really is a dream come true to even be training right now. Being a Personal Trainer is my dream job, and I’m so determined to get there. No matter how long it takes. I get a year to complete my course, but most complete it within 6 months. I don’t know how long it’ll take me, but I’ll persevere each and every day until I get there. Sitting at my desk is however playing havoc with my back! Having sat there most of the day, I’m in quite considerable amounts of pain right now! But, at least I know the cause of it now, and can try and rectify the problem. It also means that it’s just strain and not an injury, which means I can still train and be okay. Such a relief! No need to see a doctor either, which is always a bonus!

Diet wise I’ve not eaten all that much today, mostly because I’ve not been hungry really, but also because of the lack of exercise. I never like to over do it on the food when I’m not working out. I fuel my body for what it needs, rather than just out of greed haha. So much has changed with me, it’s unreal!

I’m feeling quite reflective tonight (if you hadn’t guessed!). Looking back over the last couple of years, I’ve really changed, for the better of course. I’ve taken back control over my mental health at long last. For the first time I really do feel in control of it, and not it over me. It’s a great feeling to be honest. I never thought I’d ever get the control back. At one point I was convinced it would always have control over me. But, here I am, rocking it every day, and living my life to the full.

Mental illnessΒ doesn’t have to destroy your life. It will if you let it. But if you find that inner strength and really fight it, you can get your life back. Recovery is possible, and you’ll be like me, looking back and reflecting on how far you’ve come. I do most days if I’m honest. Admittedly I do have that constant fear in the back of my mind, every night when I go to bed; you never know when it’s going to jump on you again and push you down. What matters most though, is that you’re prepared for it when it happens. That’s the key to living with mental illness I think. Never, ever, give up. That’s when it gets you. When you give up, it takes over and has control over you. When you give it your all and really fight it, you take back that control, and it fades into the background.

Don’t get me wrong, living with it is hard, but it does get easier. Knowing I’ve got Bipolar for life is a scary thought, but as long as I’m in control, it’ll be okay. I refuse to let it define me and rule my life. I will be a Personal Trainer, and I will live my life how I want to live it. It isn’t going to stop me, not now, not ever.

This weekend has truly been a great one, and I’m feeling so content and happy right now. Loving life completely. Of course, there could be things that are better, but in the grand scheme of things, I’ve got it pretty good and I’ve certainly no reason to complain.

Anyway, that’s enough waffle from me for tonight! it’s time to relax and watch some TV before bed. Another week beckons, and it’s nearly pay day! I’ll continue to take each day as it comes, and make the most of it. I hope you do too.

Thanks for reading lovely people; hope you’ve had a great weekend too!

Take care, stay strong and until next time….

x Sara Phoenix x

25th July

Hey folks,

Today has been a pretty good day; had a nice long lay in this morning, getting me around 9 hours sleep, woohoo! I definitely needed it, but am still pretty shattered to be honest! I don’t think you can ever catch up on missed sleep!!

Had my PT session this afternoon, which was as awesome as ever. Hard work though! Started off with some incline treadmill to warm up, then did some tri-sets of the following – 250m sprint on the rower, slam ball shoulder throw overs, followed by lunges and squats holding kettlebells. Did this set 3 times over, getting quicker each time, so that was good! I think my best time was 2 minutes and 40 seconds! So my PT was impressed (as was I!). Then we finished with the rope climb machine, doing some tabata training (20 seconds on, 10 seconds rest), we did 10 rounds of that, and by the end my arms were feeling pretty dead! We ended the session with some cool down stretches and a chat πŸ™‚ I seriously have the best PT, he’s a proper legend. Can’t believe I’ve been training with him nearly 12 weeks now! Time has really flown by, and I’m consistently seeing results, which is great.

Diet wise, it’s been treat day today, so had pizza for dinner and some chocolate just now πŸ™‚ but still within my limits of course, but I think I definitely earned the chocolate today haha.

Mood wise, I’m feeling really good; am just about to crack on with my next assessment, well make a start on it anyway. The best thing about it is, there’s no time limit, so I can take a few days to do it and hopefully get it right first time! Still awaiting the results of the last one, but it did say it can take up to four weeks, so one week down, three to go!

Anyway, time for me to sign off for tonight and get on, so with that said, thank you for reading folks! Take care, stay strong and until next time….

x Sara Phoenix x

24th July

Hey folks,

Just a quickie for today, as not really done much to write about and am in the middle of studying!

Went to visit my mum this morning, which was nice; had a cuppa and a catch up πŸ™‚ she was impressed with my car too, and I loved driving it! Took her out for a spin as well!

Mood wise I’m good, just very very tired. Missed the gym again today because of my back, but will be heading in tomorrow for my PT session. He’s aware of my back issues, so I’m sure he’ll tailor it to suit; we’re going to discuss beforehand anyway.

I feel quite lethargic and lazy today, and am having naughty pizza for dinner! Hopefully it’ll be within my calories, but I’m not so sure…. Ah well, it’s okay to go over occasionally, and I was under 2000 by about 200 yesterday, so it’ll even out okay.

Not working out really sucks though, so I’m hoping this back pain goes away sharpish!

Right, back to the books for me, so will leave it there πŸ™‚ thanks for reading folks, apologies it’s not been the most interesting of posts tonight! But it’s better than nowt πŸ˜‰

Take care, stay strong and until next time….

x Sara Phoenix x